I was so sad and lonely I layed in bed and ate. I drove through Del Taco, ordered food, drove home, ate it in bed and watched TV - consciencely, knowing that I was eating out of depresion, sadness, loniless but not caring because I wanted relief.
I haven't cleaned my house in weeks, the kitchen floor unmopped, the toilet dirty, I wear dirty clothes - I just don't want to care, I do care, less and less each day.
We bought a new car 4 months ago, and I have not had it washed - ever. It's a mess inside and out, a reflection of me.